...and so begins the next journey in our life. We have four more years (AHHH...ONLY FOUR?) with sweet Shayna - to mold and shape her before sending her off into the great big world. We have 17 years with Addison - and that will be it for us in the youngster department. Today we received the bad news that my HCG levels had dropped between Monday and Wednesday. I went from thinking about baby names one minute, to the reality that there will be no baby the next. It is almost comical how one begins to want something so bad when they aren't able to have it. How a person can think they don't even want any more kids...until they are faced with the inability to make that choice. What's ironic, is that I had dealt with it. I was okay with not having any more kids after Addison. But I decided that we could give it one more try before I threw in the towel. So we did, and never in my wildest dreams did I imagine we would actually get pregnant last month. But we did, and I ...