Fortune - Misfortune
For those who don't know, I have had my eye on a specific home that I would like for us Breen's to acquire as our own for quite some time now. I had inside intell that the home would be going into foreclosure and that very thing has almost officially happened.
It is exactly the home I can see our family growing (and growing old) in - a home with a hot tub and a pool which is something that I didn't used to want, but have found that I want more and more over the last few years. A home that has 5 bedrooms and an office, which sounds like a lot until you consider that we are hoping and praying to have a 3rd child in the near future and have always used one bedroom for a TV room instead of having a TV in our main living area. A home that just happens to be directly next door to my best friend and across the ally from another friend. A home that has kitchen counter tops that I love, newer carpet, a spiral staircase and the dark cherry wood kitchen cabinets that I have always found to be the most beautiful of all kitchen cabinets. (I am just a dark wood kind of girl). Oh...and let me just mention again the amazing deck and pool!!
Normally, a home in this neighborhood would have a price tag that is more than my beloved and I would feel comfortable with. But because the previous owners were unable (unwilling really) to pay the bills on the home, it is suddenly *potentially* in a range that we (I?) am comfortable with. Additionally, I believe that this home - due to the foreclosure situation - could have a significant increase in value over the next few years as our little town becomes a bigger town.
However, each day as I check for it to show up as an available property, I feel a small pang of guilt that I am desirous of a home that another family "lost". I hate that someone else had to have an unfortunate family and financial situation so that my family could have the opportunity to acquire such a home.
It is everything I have ever wanted in a home though --- and more. So I continue to pray that if it is God's will that this is the home for our family, that if this home is where we are supposed to make our memories in the years to come, then everything will just work itself out. I have seen it happen where God has allowed a friends home to sell in only a few days allowing them to take a job that He wanted them to take. So I am praying for precisely that. That IF it is to be - God will put all of the chips in the proper places at the proper times and it will be a smooth transaction. Most especially that it will not cause undue stress on my marriage or our finances.
It is amazing the way one can feel so relaxed about something, even something they want very badly, when the worrying is released to God. I am usually very high strung about things that I want, trying to "make" things happen and in my timing. Yet, with this, I have an amazing peace about it even while feeling a sense of urgency to get my affairs in order here in this home. I just have this gut feeling that this other home is where we are supposed to live. However, I also have a very relieving sensation that washes over me each time I start to stress about how to "make it happen" saying - be diligent, follow up and do the work you need to do to allow it to happen and I (God) will do the rest.
Maybe that family's misfortune is supposed to be our good fortune. Then again, maybe it is simply that God wants me to clean, organize and get a renewed appreciation for the home we already have - and this is the motivation I need to do that. If that is the case, that will be fine too. :) It is all in His hands - and I feel great comfort in that.
*Keeping my fingers crossed though ;)
It is exactly the home I can see our family growing (and growing old) in - a home with a hot tub and a pool which is something that I didn't used to want, but have found that I want more and more over the last few years. A home that has 5 bedrooms and an office, which sounds like a lot until you consider that we are hoping and praying to have a 3rd child in the near future and have always used one bedroom for a TV room instead of having a TV in our main living area. A home that just happens to be directly next door to my best friend and across the ally from another friend. A home that has kitchen counter tops that I love, newer carpet, a spiral staircase and the dark cherry wood kitchen cabinets that I have always found to be the most beautiful of all kitchen cabinets. (I am just a dark wood kind of girl). Oh...and let me just mention again the amazing deck and pool!!
Normally, a home in this neighborhood would have a price tag that is more than my beloved and I would feel comfortable with. But because the previous owners were unable (unwilling really) to pay the bills on the home, it is suddenly *potentially* in a range that we (I?) am comfortable with. Additionally, I believe that this home - due to the foreclosure situation - could have a significant increase in value over the next few years as our little town becomes a bigger town.
However, each day as I check for it to show up as an available property, I feel a small pang of guilt that I am desirous of a home that another family "lost". I hate that someone else had to have an unfortunate family and financial situation so that my family could have the opportunity to acquire such a home.
It is everything I have ever wanted in a home though --- and more. So I continue to pray that if it is God's will that this is the home for our family, that if this home is where we are supposed to make our memories in the years to come, then everything will just work itself out. I have seen it happen where God has allowed a friends home to sell in only a few days allowing them to take a job that He wanted them to take. So I am praying for precisely that. That IF it is to be - God will put all of the chips in the proper places at the proper times and it will be a smooth transaction. Most especially that it will not cause undue stress on my marriage or our finances.
It is amazing the way one can feel so relaxed about something, even something they want very badly, when the worrying is released to God. I am usually very high strung about things that I want, trying to "make" things happen and in my timing. Yet, with this, I have an amazing peace about it even while feeling a sense of urgency to get my affairs in order here in this home. I just have this gut feeling that this other home is where we are supposed to live. However, I also have a very relieving sensation that washes over me each time I start to stress about how to "make it happen" saying - be diligent, follow up and do the work you need to do to allow it to happen and I (God) will do the rest.
Maybe that family's misfortune is supposed to be our good fortune. Then again, maybe it is simply that God wants me to clean, organize and get a renewed appreciation for the home we already have - and this is the motivation I need to do that. If that is the case, that will be fine too. :) It is all in His hands - and I feel great comfort in that.
*Keeping my fingers crossed though ;)
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